“ho i ove you no, dubedore”

    它耗尽了我所有的感情和精力。

    我看着他的眼睛，那双曾经明亮、迷人、微笑的眼睛，如今充满了痛苦和挣扎。我不禁回忆起那些甜蜜的夏日，带着激情，带着梦想，带着爱。

    我记得阳光，记得影子，记得耳语，记得夜晚。

    我知道我爱过他，或许，现在依然爱着。我知道我无法欺骗我的心，但或许，我可以背叛自己的灵魂。我该用 "背叛 "这个词吗我的身体曾经容纳一切，现在却变得无比空虚。

    无意义、无望、绝望。

    我试图寻找出路，却被蒙蔽了双眼。

    被他，被爱，被毒药

    没有他，我看不到未来。

    同样，我也看不到拥有他的未来。

    我将所有的感情收集起来，埋藏在心底，等候多年，直到有一天，或者某个深夜，我将它们重新全部拿了出来。我深深地沉浸于其中，细细品味，耐心地，品尝着苦涩，这是我无法抗拒的毒药，从开始，到结束。

    但，这与悔恨无关，现实就是如此。

    我只能继续走下去。

    直到最后。

    “you're a aone”

    “ho i ove you no, dubedore”

    it draed a y feegs and energy

    i ook to his eyes, eyes that ere once

    ight, charg, and sig, but are no fied ith a and strugge i can't he but reber those seet sur days, ith assion, ith dreas, ith ove

    i reber the sunshe, the shados, the hisers, the nights

    i kno i oved hi, and erhas, sti do i kno i can't cheat y heart, but erhas, i can betray y u shoud i e the ord "betraya" y body, hich once hed everythg, is no crediby ety

    angess, hoeess, and deserate

    i tried to fd a ay out, but i as bded

    by hi, by ove, by oin

    i udnt see a future ithout hi

    i udnt see the future ith hi

    i ected a y feegs, buried they heart, and aited for years, unti one day, orte night, i

    ought the a out aga i irsed ysef deeythe, savourg, atienty, the bitterness, the oin i udn't resist, fro the begng, to the end

    its not about regret, it is hat it is

    the ony thg that i ud do ison andon

    andon

    unti the end

    “youre a aone”</p>